Shraddha is from Round Rock, TX and participated in the NSLI-Y Arabic Academic Year 2019-2020 in Morocco. She wrote the first part of this story as a NSLI-Y student in 2019 sharing her on-program experience, and shared a second part this year as an alumna of the program describing the impact NSLI-Y has had on her future.

Part 1: Shraddha's NSLI-Y Student Experience

“American… hmmm, but where are you really from?”

It’s a question I hear multiple times each day, and at this point, I’ve made it into a game, because as a brown girl, saying “American” is never a satisfactory response.

“Guess,” I respond, “What do you think?”

Shraddha stands next to a sign for India Street in Rabat, Morocco

A street named "India Street" in Rabat.

Occasionally, people are spot on, greeting me with “Namaste” on the street, but surprisingly, the most common nationality assigned to me has been “Syrian.” Often, after an exchange with a shopkeeper or someone I meet in the street, I’ll be asked if I’m “souriyyeh.” I’ve been making a list of all the “alternative nationalities” given to me, and so far I’ve gotten Palestinian, Lebanese, Egyptian, and even Tunisian. No matter how much I try to speak in Darija, the Shaami accent is here to stay, and I guess it’s quite apparent. Even though I know that I will never quite sound “Moroccan,” I won’t lie; it is quite flattering to pass off as an Arabic speaker, even though I probably wouldn’t be confused for a native speaker in an actual Shaami-speaking country.

Most interestingly, this is the first time that I am living in a country for an extended period of time where nearly everyone looks like me. And it’s wild. Like really, is this how white people feel in the U.S.? Back home, my skin color was always something I noticed, and in any public space, I would unconsciously look around for people of color near me. Here, I am suddenly in a position of privilege, because I am Moroccan-passing. Multiple times, I’ve been stopped on the street by locals for questions about directions, and in general, until I speak, no one makes the assumption that I’m a foreigner, and in short exchanges, people usually don’t notice. As a result, the way I’m treated here differs dramatically from many of my peers, both white and students of color. To clarify, other students with the same ethnic/racial background have had very different experiences in terms of how their skin color is perceived, but I have been privileged because it just so happens that the specific shade of my skin and hair matches the majority of people here. I guess I can compare it to the idea of being “white-passing” in America; here I “belong” and enjoy privileges on the basis of my skin color and appearance, even though I am an outsider in many ways.

Despite “fitting in” in terms of my appearance, I must admit that I truly miss being part of my cultural community back home. I miss dancing to Bollywood music with friends, coming home and speaking only in Hindi, or eating my favorite Indian foods. Fortunately, however, in the past two weeks, I’ve discovered an exciting way to stay closely in touch with one of the most important parts of my cultural heritage: my language.

Shraddha studies with students from her Hindi-Urdu club in Rabat, Morocco

Studying with the students of the Hindi-Urdu Club.

Since last week, I’ve started teaching at the Hindi-Urdu Club at the American Language Center (ALC), and it’s become a highlight of my week. The ALC is an English-language learning center for Moroccan students, and it offers free weekend clubs for students. While the first week was more a chance for me to observe and get a feel of the club, this week, I independently taught the Year Two students, consisting of a group of five sweet girls close to my age. In addition to practicing verb conjugations and introductions, we talked about our favorite Bollywood movies. It’s so nice to meet people here in Rabat who are so passionate about my culture, and I’m so excited to become closer to them over the weeks! ❤

Shraddha eating traditional Syrian food

Trying out Syrian food.

In addition to getting to speak the language, I’m learning as I teach. As a heritage speaker, there are a lot of grammar concepts that I have never really thought about, so I’m forced to better understand why we talk the way we do. In addition, the class is conducted in both the Hindi and Urdu script, so for the first time, I’m actually learning how to read and write. In the past, I informally self-studied both scripts, so while I can read Devanagari and Nastaliq, writing is a bit of a nightmare. However, by being forced to write words and the board (while acting like I know what I’m doing), I’m really learning how to spell and improve my awful handwriting.

Nearly two months in, I am getting used to calling Rabat my home. I’ll never quite be “American” enough– both here and back home, but I’m glad to be able to live parts of my Indian-American life in this city. Months ago, I would never have thought of finding Moroccans my age who were obsessed with my language, and I certainly couldn’t have imagined teaching Hindi in a real classroom setting. But I here I am. The Moroccan-passing Indian-American who is assumed to be Syrian. The proud Hindi speaker who is able to share her cultural heritage with a new group of people. The exchange student who is finding community so far away from home.

Part 2: Reflecting on the Impact of the NSLI-Y Program as an Alumna

Since finishing her gap year in Morocco, Shraddha has completed her first two years at Harvard University, and her experience there has been heavily influenced by her NSLI-Y experience. She has continued with formal Arabic instruction, while engaging in the Yallah al- Quds program, which facilitates linguistic and cultural exchange between Palestinian students and Arabic learners across the world. Her time in the Middle East also influenced her research interests in college, where she is concentrating in Social Studies, and hoping to pursue “a focus field centered on anti-colonialism and human rights in the Middle East and South Asia.” Shraddha also works as a research assistant for human rights and geopolitics in the Middle East and South Asia. As she looks forward to the rest of her college career, she hopes to write a thesis focusing on human rights and nationalism in Palestine and India.

Shraddha has continued to reflect on how her experience in Morocco helped develop her racial and cultural identity. She found that Moroccan culture was very similar to the values that had been instilled in her in her Indian-American home, thus bringing her closer to her South Asian identity. She has continued to immerse herself in South Asian spaces at Harvard, including directing Harvard’s annual South Asian showcase. Additionally, Shraddha notes her growing interest in “posing more critical questions about politics, culture, and nationhood in South Asia, and [is] happy to be exploring these topics through my academics and extracurriculars.”